Spirits10 Ocak 2022
This story will be short and was triggered by two small occurrences in the last 12 hours. One was a text in response to my own from an old love. The second was hearing the song ‘Hotel California’ as I worked in my garden as the sun rose on a beautiful Saturday morning in coastal Central California.
“UM…Friend can I get you some help?” The bartender asked.
“Can I see the wine list?” Drew asked sort of looking around the bar. It was very upscale and had nice wood trim work and the remake of the old tin ceilings. The large mirror behind the bar gave a nice double reflection of the rear plaster cornice. It was a nice touch.
The list was slid in front of him, and he had to smile. The name of the bar was embossed on the beautiful wine list “Spirits.” Drew chose a nice deep red syrah.
“Spirits” was why he came here. The name of the restaurant seemed to call him from across the street.
‘Spirits’ was why he was here. ‘Spirits’…hauntings of life, past, present and future.
Drew looked at himself in the mirror. Looked into the eyes of the man he was.
‘God…I look like shit,” Drew stated openly and then gave his Mona Lisa smile.
“Barkeep, do you have a pair of scissors behind the bar?” Drew asked.
Drew still could not fathom why he had gotten off the freeway, at this particular off ramp He was supposed to be on his way home. Its not like the neighborhood held any draw to him anymore. The house and neighborhood where he had spent his Highschool years. The house had been repainted. It had a new family. They kept it up better than his family ever did. He had driven past it many years ago when his sister had visited CA and it held little to no intrinsic value to him.
The house sat in one of the many subdivisions of the LA basin, one indistinguishable from the next. At least from the freeway. No clear breaks, no bands of trees to separate neighborhoods, just rooftop after rooftop. Tall boxes, short boxes, styled boxes, and warren boxes set in scattered rows for mile after mile after mile.
A box for people to live in and toil the daily grind.
Admittedly, it was the last ‘childhood home’ he had before venturing off to go to university. A home before his father suddenly past at much to early an age. He had come back for the funeral but never ever returned. Even now he would scoot down to work on his mom’s mobile home and then run back up north the next morning after taking her to breakfast.
He did not even understand how he had made the decision to get off the damn freeway. But here he was, driving up the same damn street he spent all those years residing. There was not a plethora of happy memories as one would see on the Hallmark Channel. Most were painful reminders of loss or teenage angst.
But here he was, parking in front of the house. He was sort of saddened. It had not been kept up and had that very worn look as when he lived there. In his case it was too many narcissistic teenagers living under one roof. A dad and stepmom that worked too much trying to feed, clothe and house the narcissistic teenagers. This left no time or money to fix up the house.
The house again had that look of his younger years.
He got out of the car and walked up the pathway leading to the front door. The door was open, and he called in.
“Hello! Hi…Is anyone there? Hello?” he yelled as he edged farther into the house. There to the left was the ‘formal’ living room. Sectioned off to make another bedroom for his oldest stepbrother. The crappy bi-fold door was still there in the opening. Something his dad did, which meant it was crooked and never closed right.
To his right, farther along, was the hallway to the ‘kids’ 3 bedrooms. His would be at the far end and to the left, next to the ‘kids’ bathroom.
Infront of him was the ‘Great Room,’ before it became trendy to have a ‘Great Room’. Wood paneled, open wood beams and a massive clinker brick fireplace. This was the place of his fondest memories. A large cheap dinning table surrounded by chairs where Friday pizza night was held. Family night dinners and breakfasts for a multitude, depending how many teenagers had landed at the house after a night of carousing and partying. This was always the safe house for hundreds of cousins and family friends.
Mom and Dad made it that way, welcoming.
He remembered Dad and later the two of them doing ‘homework’ on that same table.
But his mind then did that Hitchcockian thing by expanding back out and in, while he stood at the edge of the Great Room.
‘This can’t be right,’ he thought. There were the two sofas from his youth. There sat the mahogany coffee table he made in shop class. The one that now sat in his own den, up north, in his own house.
His eyes swept the room, the old TV, the old-style cable TV controller that you had to twist the dial on. He looked at the doorway to the kitchen and saw the portable phone in its cradle on the kitchen countertop.
He heard a toilet flush ankara eryaman escort and spun his body a quarter turn so his spinning head could look down the corridor at the ‘kids’ bathroom door. He watched the handle turn, the door crack and then slowly open.
Out stepped a vision from long ago, HER. His heart almost stopped beating for that moment in time. She was dressed in her song leader uniform for the local Community College. She had the two sets of panties in her hand, soft cotton, and the synthetic cover.
Her eyes…he could never look away from her eyes. They held so much magic for him. When they were full of lust, they almost glowed. And they had a duel look now, lust and confusion.
“Dee, what’s wrong?” she stood there looking like the vision of loveliness that he always remembered. Only two people in his life could use the ‘child’ version of his name and make him smile, his stepmom and HER.
“Dee, it looks like you just saw a ghost! Come on, we only have an hour to play, and I must be back to class. You do too if I remember.” And she turned grabbing the bottom of her song sweater and pulling it over her head. He saw her thin muscular back and bra straps as she passed the corner.
There she was…his dream girl. Taller than he, with a beautiful athletic body and legs that never seemed to end.
In a daze, he turned his body slowly and walked past his sister’s bedroom, then past the door to the room two of the stepbrothers shared. He made the left turn past the doorway to the bathroom and could smell HER perfume freshly applied.
He had gotten together with her over the years. They had an amazing short affair just before his 50th birthday. They had gotten together a couple of times after that, always at his request and admitted begging.
But this all went back to their first relationship when he was 20 and she 18.
He edged his way toward ‘his’ bedroom and he could see the front edges of his king size bed. Her song shoes and the dainty socks laid on the carpet at the foot. Her bra was draped over the small pile. Her sweater was draped over the far edge of the bed. Half in the doorway he took in the amazing view.
She had herself propped on his multiple pillows. She was smiling and her eyes glowed with lust. As always, her eyes smiled as much as her lips. Her tongue was licking her painted lips. Her feet were planted in the duvet about a foot apart. Her long legs, bent at spread knees showing the gorgeous light-haired vulva that was already swollen and moist. Her song skirt bunched around her waist, framed her sex, and splayed legs. Her fingers slowly stroked her lower lips and pulled back the hood of her clit.
Her breasts, while only a B cup were beautiful, symmetrical, and held upturned large nipples. The nipples were large and sensitive and had brought him so much joy in their later loving. He adored taking time to suck, play and tease them. Anything to bring her pleasure and make her moan.
He could smell her subtle aroma, from where he stood half in and half out of the doorway. Without thinking he started to unbutton his shirt and pull it from his jeans. He walked slowly over to the edge of the bed never taking his eyes from her.
He dropped his shirt on the ground and sat on the bed next to her. His hands were shaking as he reached over to cup her cheek. He was praying it was not a mirage or figment of some dream where she would fade into nothing if he touched her. She took his hand as it reached her face and kissed the palm.
He leaned farther over and slowly touched his lips to hers. He could taste her, and he took in her breath. She moaned and he could feel her tongue join with his. They stayed like that for a bit, slowly and softly kissing and exploring each other’s mouth.
He slowly swung around, still encased in jeans and kissed her again. They made out like the teenagers or young adults they were then. Drew slid down her neck remembering all the places she loved to be kissed. He reached down with his left hand and joined her hand in stroking her sex.
He traced all her lower lips, her large engorged outer lips, and her fine drenched inner lips. He traced up her sex to her clit. She pulled her hood and from her lips by his ear he heard her command.
“Softly,” she whispered, and he obeyed.
He took a nipple in his lips and started to suckle. She moaned and put her other hand in his hair pulling his lips harder into her breasts. He was content for a while just to lavish praise on her large sensitive nipples. It was one of those actions that had never changed over time. While they had experimented together and then carried those actions into their adulthood, making her moan was one of his greatest thrills.
His fingers grew wet and sticky with her essence and it would be HER that he compared all his other lovers against. He had always admitted that there was no one that ever compared fully. He never understood, and later in his life gave up trying to figure it out, how she touched something escort elvankent deeper than just lust in his soul.
She was to become his unseen muse for many of his paintings, sculptures, poems, and stories. It was not just lust, but always something deeper for him. Her presence, a memory or picture brought artistic inspiration into his soul. Regretfully, as with all things based in the ‘real’ physical world, it was purely one sided.
But here she was in his arms. He could feel his soul filling with adulation, joy and that glow he had in his heart when she was near. He continued his travels south, down her stomach until he reached the waist band of her skirt, he kissed along the waistline until she giggled.
He swung himself over her leg and settled down between each spread knee and just watched her fingers continue to play. Her hand came off her sex and traveled to his mouth. He looked up into her glowing eyes and watched her smirk. But also watched the lust grown in her eyes as he began to lick and feast from her wetness on her fingers.
Her hands came up to the back of his head and urged him lower. He held her eyes until his vision was blocked by the rumpled skirt as his lips met her lower engorged pussy. She moaned louder and arched her hips as he began to kiss and lick.
He dove lower tracing and searching out the small river of her flowing wetness. He pushed her legs back so he could lick from her rosebud to her clit in long flat tonged travels. He knew that she liked it in their later lovemaking but could not remember if they had played the backdoor game at their earlier endeavors.
Her reaction spoke volumes. She arched her back and gave out a small scream and she had some type of orgasm. Not as large as the ones he remembered, but he also knew that one she started cumming, more would follow.
He continued to lick and tease drawing more tremors, patterned breaths, and moans. Sure signs she was building up to one of her momentous orgasms. He continued his ministration, bringing her closer and closer.
“I need you to fuck me,” she begged.
“Not yet,” he responded after pulling away from her wetness. He dove back down to lavish more attention. With one hand he slid two fingers inside her, just arching them to lightly rub her g-spot.
With his other hand he reached down to unbutton his 501’s and push them past his hips. His erection sprang forth against the duvet. Thank goodness he never wore underwear with his jeans, or he would have had something else to deal with.
As her undulations took on her pattern, he started to concentrate on and around her clit. This seemed to be the final desire and she screamed and arched her back, coating his with flowing essence. He gave her a few moments to flail through the waves of her climax.
He then slid up her body and into her. She arched her back again and moaned but the tenor and octaves had changed. He looked into her eyes. While the lust was still there, it had taken on a ‘sleepier’ shade in her eyes.
He thrust in slowly and pulled back. He was still trying to bring her pleasure. Her hand came up and caressed his cheek.
“Let it go Dee. You have already taken care of me. I want you to cum deep inside me so I can feel your warmth,” she begged. And so, he did. He pounded into her, and she moaned and scratched his back with her nails.
He came deep within her with his cock throbbing inside the velvet wrap of her sheath. He held himself there looking into her eyes and then lowered himself down for a soft kiss.
He laid down beside her and pulled her over, so her head was on his shoulder, and her leg straddled his. He could feel her wet swollen lower lips kissing his thigh. He could feel himself leaking out and running down his thigh and remember that feeling from their past. She started to lightly move her hips, still rubbing her clit but using his thigh instead of fingers. He remembered it from their past as one of the most sensual post sex things that any woman had ever done with him. She was the only one that ever did it.
He looked around the room and wondered what this was all about. It had the same crappy yellow walls that he had painted. Same odd back door to the back patio that no one used, including him.
“So, am I dead?” he asked the vision of HER.
“No, do you want to be?” She responded.
He took a deep breath and did not have the heart or desire to play word games.
“You are the spitting image of someone I have loved for over 40 years. Your eyes are hers. You taste like her. You kiss like her.” Drew paused and then tried to clear his mind.
“Even with the changes that have been part of hers and my growing older, there is always part of me that will love her or at least the idea of her.” Drew commented.
“And now you have answered your own question.” She responded.
He was starting to lose the calm he was trying to maintain dealing in this realm of insanity.
“So, you said I am not dead. Am I dying?” Drew asked etimesgut escort bayan again.
“Do you want to?” She responded again.
“Fuck! This is not funny anymore! How am I back in this house, with you, in the bed where we started our relationship? Well at least the sexual portion of it.” Drew queried.
“Well, you brought us here, silly.” She responded.
“Why! Why are we here?” Drew lowered his head and softly bit her left nipple. She moaned and arched her back.
“OH FUCK!” She said out loud as a series of tremors rocked her.
“You brought us here, you need to answer your own questions.” She commented and saw Drew lowering his head for more nipple play. She grabbed his ears and not is a sexy way, stopping his momentum.
“And quit doing that! Its cheating and scrambles my thought processes.” She huffed and then giggled.
“Are you real?” Drew asked
“Of course I am real, dummy. We just had sex for the last hour and this bed is trashed. So yes, it’s real. It’s in your mind so therefore its real.” She responded and then looked in his eyes and slowly kissed him.
“Because its only in your mind, does not make it less real. The spirits and the energy of love do not go away. Some find homes in others, maybe your children, some in your art. It is that love and desire for me that makes me real. It brought me here. When you infuse your art with me, it is a type of love and I live in your art. It’s the same with your writing, showing your love through words.,” she stopped to look in his eyes again. “It’s your ideal of love, your idea of me and it’s how you show it.” She said softly while caressing his cheek.
“You already know your writings, art and poems are an extension of your love. The love and your art, in all its forms, only come from a good place,” she stated looking deeper in his eyes.
“That love has helped you cope through many things,” she paused, “but…”
And there is always a “but,” he commented sadly.
“Yes, well…humankind is a bit of a pain in the ass. It is something you will have to live with.” She paused again.
“Because your ideal of me, you have been able to expand your life and touch others. But only you can define or redefine your ‘ideal’ of me,” She stopped and looked around.
“We have to go, I have class and practice later and you need to go home,” she stated as she slid out of bed and started to put her bra back on. He loved watching her dress, so he just lounged back on the bed.
“I thought I was back home?” he commented trying to get more information from the Spirit now pulling her sweater over herself.
“This can be, but I hope you do not choose it. It would be you loosing yourself in a fantasy instead of the life you have been dreaming of,” she commented as she slid on her panties.
“I will be leaking you for the rest of my day,” she said sounding sad but with a slight smile on her face.
Drew stood and pulled his jeans up tight and grabbed his button down from the floor and started to pull it on he shoved the tails inside and then buttoned up his 501’s.
She finished putting her shoes on and turned to him. She moved closer looking slightly down at him. She was always an inch or two taller.
“Don’t stop loving. Do not stop dreaming. Its what fuels your soul. Go live your life to the fullest. If we, in some ideal, are ever meant to be, it will happen…or not.” She lightly kissed him.
Things started to shift and fade.
“Remember the Spirits. The Spirits of Love…” was the last thing he heard her say.
Drew woke up from a horrible dream.
“Fuck I hurt,” he thought. He hated getting old and waking each day sore and making old man noises as he shifted around trying to get his head straight. He had slid below his covers, and he was really cold. He threw off the covers off his head and found himself naked in a room of stainless steel and ceramic tile.
He slid his feet over the edge dragging the sheet cover with his legs. From between his feet, he felt something shift and a large bag dropped to the floor. He saw his cell was in the bag and the jarring had turned it on. He looked around and recognized the room…the morgue.
He had built enough hospitals to know what the fucking room was.
‘Idiots!’ Was all he could think of now. He slid, half fell off the stainless gurney and had to grab the damn thing to keep from falling. He looked around for his clothes but knew that they would have cut them from him. his shoes were at least in the bag. He bent to pick the bag up and was hit by a wave of vertigo.
“I really liked those damn jeans, they just started to fit me just right!” he stated too only himself. “Well, at least I can still talk” he thought “a bit scratchy, but a good drink or two will fix that.”
He snatched the evidence bag off the floor and then started looking around for something to wear. He saw a side room and slowly, carefully walked over and opened the door. There were shelves of scrubs in the room and a bench.
He pulled the green x-large pants off the shelf and then snatched a corresponding top from the self above. He was going to pry open the evidence bag, but it was tough, and he could not find scissors or a knife. But he did spy the surgical shoe covers, so he put them on.